Late Night, Scattered Thoughts

Do you get those days where you live in a moment over and over again, one from a different time in your life? That memory repeating itself, over and over and over, your poor little heart is victimized by constant attacks by your brain, over and over again. Where is the button? How do i switch it off? you keep asking…. stop please! Make it stop!

Yet, Still, you find yourself in a little box, trapped, just you and that memory. Alone.

Yeah .. you’ve been there. We all have.

Now, that memory might be a painful one today, causing your heart to race, your lungs to compress and every little tiny cell in your body to hurt. I will tell you this…

One day, once you come to peace with it, this memory will be a welcomed little package, filled with smiles and a breath of fresh air from your daily routine. Don’t believe me? just wait for it. Remember me when it happens.

Man-kind is funny that way, we were made to adapt. Our bodies have their own little routine, even though you think you are in control, you really are not. No matter what you do, how much you try, your mind, body & soul will adapt when they are ready to, in their own sweet time, All you can do is distract yourself while they do their job.. which is? …. To get your sweet little behind off the ground, back on your feet, ready to face the world’s struggles once again.

Anyway, back to our memory.. As i grow older, i learn to appreciate my brain so much, the way it works .. My personality fascinates me, so does my mind..  It drives me insane when i realize how, every single time i think i’m in control, it turns out my mind, my personality, my whole being is taking over .. No matter how hard i try, i say “ok, this time i will do things differently!” haha! it never works! my personality always wins, my mind always takes over all my actions! It’s rather beautiful if you ask me.

How can a mind turn something painful into something so warm and pleasant. Amazing!

When it happens to you, i assure you, fascination will dawn over you.. and a smile will brighten your face up.

Now that that’s off my chest, i shall grab my kindle and a cup of coffee and spend a few pleasant hours on my balcony, reading.

Till next time,